it's a daisy!

2006-12-09T12:47:00.001+09:00

2006-09-20T15:53:00.000+09:00

...

2006-08-15T16:45:00.000+09:00

dear daisy,
saje takde keje. i want to tell everyone that i am happy.

2006-07-28T10:55:00.000+09:00

nurnberg..oooo i miss jalan jalan kt kaufhof

2006-07-28T10:48:00.000+09:00

me of course the one holding the camera.

2006-07-28T10:46:00.000+09:00

2006-07-28T10:41:00.000+09:00

smell like tin minyak tanah . panas woo

2006-07-28T10:36:00.000+09:00

2006-07-28T08:21:00.000+09:00

lousy thought and i prefer not to talk about it and the recent unlucky event. whoa. all i want is to treasure the last moment in here. it is finally i come to the end of my journey in europe.the feeling was different than when i first came here . at first(in London larr) time swifted slowly and as time goes by, i felt like running towards the end of racing line.

i am going to miss everything here. the food, the people and of course every scene.

forsaken of time, i tried to contain this moment to be static, just like in a picture that i could carry in my wallet, folded neatly and always near to my heart.

i am thankful for this time. i shall remember this to the end of my life.

2006-07-26T10:10:00.000+09:00

it hit me right in the eyes with crytal clear waiting for the perfect time to burst out loud. never such unlucky event ever happened in my life.

2006-07-23T13:17:00.000+09:00

i was a superpower geek, a nerd in my own style with a unique sense humor for IQ below 100 or people below 12 years old.

i really love sundae.

2006-07-23T11:16:00.000+09:00

dear daisy,
kakak miss mama, babah, abang, abeb, didi and iwan.

2006-06-03T07:53:00.000+09:00

this time i dont want to shoot at the star. i want to shoot bull's eye direct to the center of head. so i'll be among evil in the hell. as everyone predicted.

2006-05-26T02:30:00.000+09:00

dear daisy, beautiful.

2006-05-24T03:38:00.000+09:00

lazy but brilliant

2006-05-16T11:17:00.000+09:00

KUALA LUMPUR: The Jalur Gemilang flew high above the world yesterday as businessman Ravichandran Tharumalingam conquered Mount Everest.

Ravichandran reached the peak of the world’s tallest mountain at 8,848.15 metres at 2.15pm (4.15pm Malaysian time) yesterday, through Tibet.

He had begun the last leg of his climb from Camp VI at 10pm Malaysian time.

Ravichandran’s journey, however, is not over as the climber has to continue down to Camp V at 7,600 m as Camp VI is not suitable for a long rest.

A statement from TR Everest Solo Expedition for Charity 2006, asked Malaysians to continue to pray for his safety and health.

2006-05-13T11:37:00.000+09:00

kakak sayang mama.
happy mother's day

2006-05-10T23:40:00.000+09:00

my fav. person

2006-03-17T01:45:00.000+09:00

i wish to live happily ever after. like babah told me, kakak always sweet 17, sweet as ever.

today, i shoot for the moon, and i hope to be among the rock stars.

p.s i also shoot for calon angkasawan negara, Dr. Sheikh Muszaphar .

2006-03-15T10:59:00.000+09:00

morning daisy,
waaa awwwww' .. waaaa awwww'

give em' hell, kid!

I say we are made from the sharpest things you say
we are young and we don't care
your dreams and your hopeless hair
we never wanted it to be this way
for all our lives
do you care at all?
if you were here i'd never have a fear
so go on live your life
but i miss you more than i did yesterday
you're so far away
so c'mon show me how
cause i mean this more than words can ever say

2006-03-14T19:18:00.000+09:00

nice nice 2nd march 06

2006-03-14T08:08:00.000+09:00

dear daisy,
it is not snowing like yesterday morning. in this charming morning with no chirping of birds but hell.. only the sound from ol' speaker playing songs more than 20 desible to beat the ear drums, i am supposed to read economics for today's lecture.

across the window near my study desk is the scenery of a steep hill that was green in summer and yellow in autumn. life circle seems getting back in order, buds of flower were seen on every thin branches. trees that stood loyal during harsh winter breeze are no longer alone and quiet. everyday it receive visitors from around the globe despite students that access the pathway to their classes.
one kilometer away to Han river and facing the advance material and chemical engineering building is bird migratory reserve, near Han river reservoir all the way to Seoul Forest. in march till may birds migrate from southern hemisphere to north, finding warmer places to habit a while before the winter comes back. the impact that these bird could bring is a global phenomenon, as they travel across borders and bring along particles that could cause widespread of disease like the avian flu.

everything that surrounds is called the environment, and adverse effects derived from it could cause a catastrophe. i beleive that these few days weird weather were caused by the global warming for extreme changes in weather. last week it was 15 celsius in one afternoon but yesterday the temperature fell to 0 and cutton buds of snow showered.

window is a wonderful throve things, an escape from reading economics.

i need my milo and honey. a good day to myself and goodluck for math.

2006-03-13T17:27:00.000+09:00

Hit me honey I left my things down to play

2006-03-13T16:48:00.000+09:00

blood from heaven and things from hell

dear daisy,
having my second cup of milo for today, now i'm thinking to do some review of today's lecture, but that thought is just another excuse to fill in the space time because finally i know i'll ended up somewhere in the bed or outside with friends.
my first class started at 9.30 am and continue until 4.00pm with only 30 minutes gap in the afternoon. i went to the class 45 minutes early than usual to pay last month's utilities at the post office and sent my friend's biology book to photocopy. the beginning of my day was rather busy than usual somehow everything went perfectly from breakfast until now.

offering myself a sandwich for today's lunch, i walked to and fro from the steepest engineering building I to the main gate where the sandwich is sold. it consumed fifteen minutes of my break time. next was my math engineering class, i assumed that i was early to be ten minutes earlier but the class was already full and i had to take chair from other class.

i considered today is a nice day even with hectic packed schedule and light lunch.

a nice day is actually - a matter of choice.
no more "i hate monday"

p/s light lunch, simply amazing to lighter weight.

2006-03-12T21:26:00.000+09:00

azam 2006.

tu lar sapa suruh g itali tak ajak..

2006-03-12T21:21:00.000+09:00

zasssssssssssssss... ashkar melayu pakai baju german.

2006-03-12T00:45:00.000+09:00

captain jeti sparrow

2006-03-10T21:09:00.001+09:00

the palace.

2006-03-10T21:09:00.000+09:00

biochemist

2006-03-10T19:14:00.000+09:00

dear daisy,
business class is like a talking class of mundane discussion about theories that determines the market. despites demand and supply, i've been driven into ambigious terms of business which i am not familiar with. it cost me two cups of coffee, a sneakers bar, a 900won milk as if it is in the morning and something to chew to fullfill the boredom in the classroom.
i entered my first e-commerce business class first class in the morning with empty stomach, eyes half shut from reading biochemistry last night and faking smiles to everyone that came before me. i was fatigued and asphyxiated for i had to climb Batu Caves and do cross country to get to my 4th floor classroom. still wide and airy spacious room could not fill my lungs. i could feel my nod of nerves coming from the heart, pounding faster than before. hands were shivered signalling the significant sign of lacking energy, a need for more glucose. i sat down at the cozy dark blue chair, put my head straight to the blackboard and i saw blackness.

sedated, with eyes contemplating around like sitting in a murky twilight zone
" what a boring day "

thanks to jimmy, at last.. at the end of the day, i finally understand what is "click and brick"

2006-03-09T13:53:00.000+09:00

it was early to wake up in the moment before rhooster and the sun rise. my back was itching from napping on the heaten floor and in the brink of awakeness and blurry vision, light from the unswitched t.v guided me in the blackned room.

it was a pretty nice game without any score between real madrid and arsenal, though i complained a lot.

2006-03-08T03:07:00.000+09:00

heart will go on and on

advance technology and science breakthrough enable people to live longer. biomaterials endeavor's artificial organ gives a chance of survival and better quality of life somehow it dont last forever. over time these materials will need replacement as its ability of mechanical movement that powered by battery decline and consumed. finally one may have to opt for organ transplant as better alternative rather than mechanical machine.

landmarks in the development of the artificial heart started since 1953 when a heart lung machine designed by Dr. john Gibbon was used in a successful open heart surgery that an artificial device can temporary mimic the function of heart. In 1967, the first successful human heart transplant was perfomed in South Africa but the patient died 18 days after the surgery. Another series of five transplant of the Jarvik total artificial heart in year 1982 by Dr. William Devries witnessed the first patient survived 112 days.

In 2000, the first total artifical heart, jarvik 2000 that can maintain blood flow in addition to generate pulse was implanted to a man in Israel. A year later, innovation of this artificial organ which is self contained mechanical heart called AbioCor first being replace into a patient. it is battery powered and the size of a soft ball.

the first malaysia's mechanical heart patient, Mohd Fikri received implantable ventricular assist device (Ivad) one of the latest technology developed by Thoratec before a heart transplant took place.

After six months finally Mohd. Fikri dont have to walk all the way along the yellow bricks to obtain a new heart.

2006-03-08T02:44:00.000+09:00

green day

no more killer curves bootylicious J.Lo when she had this cascading chiffon drapes compared to Versache's green transparent ones when she dated heartrob badboy serial dater, P. dd. Voted worst dresser, J.Lo should move out the block and join the bandwagon of glamour and glaring stars rather than make green look worst on her.

2006-03-07T03:42:00.000+09:00

kisah klasik untuk masa depan.

it was started by jeering remarks at my beautiful name given by beloved captain hook during my first week at school. our first hangout was a few months later after being voted by own classmates to attend prestigous nadwah islamiah. having the most terrible voice for nasyid and excused for not memorizing the lyrics, we stood behind buzzing like a bass guitar.

those days we sang so7 like nowdays peer sing peterpan. we chased a guy who play guitar the "time of yourlife" at aaj.

these days we sit and laugh at our past, smirking at good ol' days, and yearn to couple years ago when time and distance disparate us and misunderstanding almost ruined our relationship. it is later then, when we sat and thought about those memories, we realized that friendship is about to forgive and forgiving.

we ain't Bonnie and Clyde or Dr. Hyde and Jackyll.

we more than that.

thanks cho, note bawah meja.

i miss you more than i did yesterday
we are made from the sharpest things you say
we are young and we don't care
your dreams and your hopeless hair
my chemical romance

2006-03-07T02:36:00.000+09:00

dear daisy,
i left the scene half empty with my belongings packed, scrunching papers on the floor, unwanted and scattered. years of wall paper count its age by the crimp at the edges which watercolored by humidity and damp of winter. smell of delight and gratifying mood will no longer lingering at its every space. It decays slowly over time as it goes by it left a sharp painful memory of what shouldn't be said and done.

i wasn't sure to cry nor to walk away, my heart was heavy and anchored by memories alive. but at point of no return, there is no turning back. one has to go on.

i wish for a brighter day.

2006-02-27T01:37:00.000+09:00

miss old days
p/s the day when my scarf burned by stupid iron at block g - class pic's footnote

2006-02-25T20:53:00.000+09:00

three cheers for power puff girls. my chemical romance.

2006-02-24T22:10:00.000+09:00

it was a bright midday and the weather had mercy on us because of its harmony between the ray of light and the warmth from final winter breeze.

the feeling of love everyday, twice on sundays - brought those smiles.

2006-02-24T22:03:00.000+09:00

graduation sr. phd.

2006-02-24T20:41:00.000+09:00

s.t.u.d.e.n.t.s kids next door

2006-02-24T17:30:00.000+09:00

f.r.i.e.n.d.s.f.o.r.e.v.e.r
hyu rocks!

2006-02-24T17:27:00.000+09:00

mechanical vs chemical
hanyang u school of engineering

2006-02-23T22:23:00.000+09:00

2006-02-23T22:12:00.000+09:00

2006-02-23T20:11:00.000+09:00

homecoming day

2006-02-23T20:07:00.000+09:00

graduation senior.

2006-02-21T13:50:00.000+09:00

a love song will always be a love song.
not a statement of being "jiwang" trang tang tang.

anyway oasis rock.. i wish the money will fall from the sky so i can have my champagne supernova in the sky tonite!!!

2006-02-21T12:06:00.000+09:00

ain't no sunshine when she gone.
dear daisy,
it is never too late to chase when you got the whole world in your hands.

"hell, he just triggered the button!" awakening my silence of being "numb" these all days when he announced his engagement. the guy who will be 25 this year set 26th March for the ceremony at his beloved lady's house, someone year younger whom he had known for five years.
to put in quarrelsome stake, i gave my disapproval and dismay my absence on that day for having to attend class. i really want to be there with him. i don't want to miss for the world. i really want to see abang so dear.
he answered in his mundane tone, his words were like puzzles more or so like snake's tounge in riddle trying to confort me that the event will be just like any ordinary family day.

i was putting myself in a happy 22 years old girl state and half part of me is being happy for him too, but i just dont want to show it very much. it is good to have him wondering about my feelings of his engagement.

to be a gentleman, a man who can win all hearts and a man who is firm with his believe and faith. not much the perfect man criteria can suit my bro, but i know as time goes by, he will learn his lesson and mama don't have to worry of his subuh prayer anymore...or his skipping prayer attitude. he..he..he..

i hate so much his smoking habit, contemplating at long term effects - i'm afraid of his health. but i can't help but to love him so much...and i know he loves me too.
this is just the beginning, he will start with engagement, then marriage.. soon it will be my time that going to be my super-dooper ending of being a decent gorilla.

wakakaka.. one thing came across my silly mind, " why getting engage when she's all yours till wed? "

"bodo" simple answered directly to me.

by the way, i'm still holding my golden key to the future.

2006-02-20T12:59:00.000+09:00

the greatest view - silverchair

2006-02-20T12:48:00.000+09:00

winter-spring to sprang.
and swing wing wing

2006-02-20T12:45:00.000+09:00

fav.dining place

2006-02-20T12:39:00.000+09:00

moment before i lost my organizer

2006-02-20T12:36:00.000+09:00

mickey "dong vfang xing qi" fan!

2006-02-20T12:35:00.000+09:00

ticket to osaka.

2006-02-20T12:33:00.000+09:00

eiwa'dae. a meeting before kichi* went back to Kiwi

2006-02-20T12:31:00.000+09:00

my chemical romance - halena

2006-02-20T03:31:00.000+09:00

like twinkle twinkle little star stays loyal to the moon,
the more i love you.

Anang & Kris Dayanti

Makin Aku Cinta

Caramu Mencintaiku
Menjauhkan kecurangan
Seperti bintang
Yang setia pada bulan

Memegang kukuh janji
Menemani aku sampai mati
Terpasung hati
Tulusmu mendampingi diriku

( 1 )
Makin aku cinta
Cermin sikapmu yang mampu
Merendam rasa keakuanku
(Mengerti, memahami cinta)

Caramu memanjakan ku
Kau rujuki kesejukan pagi
Memasang hati
Tulus aku, memasrahkan diri

( ulang 1 2X )

Jangan pernah terbesit hati
Meragukan kesetiaan yang tercurah
Aku dan dirimu ditakdirkan satu
Langit jadi saksi

( ulang 1 2X )

2006-02-19T01:58:00.000+09:00

happy graduation day

2006-02-19T01:53:00.000+09:00

2006-02-19T01:47:00.000+09:00

fun and fresh. ada yang baru balik dari Malaysia tu...

2006-02-19T01:45:00.000+09:00

have fun. funney faces

2006-02-19T01:37:00.000+09:00

aie, u got the charm from me. wakaka

2006-02-19T01:33:00.000+09:00

happy graduation day to friends and juniors.

2006-02-14T21:30:00.000+09:00

the world is witnessing "the greatest misery of life"

phew...i hope this is real

2006-02-13T09:08:00.000+09:00

Jalan 9, Taman Kajang Raya. before my babah became tok ketua kampung at dengkil lar...

2006-02-13T08:51:00.000+09:00

somesay that tempat jatuh lagi dikenang, inikan pula tempat bermain. this morning i came across this google earth pro and browsed at my beloved hometown - kajang. I jot down my favorite place where i grew up along Jalan Bukit almost nine years.

theme song of the day: miss you love (silverchair)

2006-02-12T23:43:00.000+09:00

love...u know when u do.
till numbers end.

clip from ed, edd and eddy.

2006-02-12T23:41:00.000+09:00

truly, madly, dorky...

2006-02-12T13:20:00.000+09:00

dear daisy,
two days ago small cotton buts painted the sunny atmosphere like polka dots in a picture. the temperature was rather warm and much like dendalion's inflorenscene. i grinned and smiled, so now it's already spring.

with vision help from thick 5.0 glasses and ears plucked with mp3 my surveillance of weather is not accurate as reported by forecast but enough to be my indicator to walk or not in the frizzy condition.

the other day, the sun stood high when i had my first step outside. but still cold. i walked out with my three inch heels just like a patriot to her final bloody battle, with handbag stripped to my trench coat i was actually on the way for a meeting with most beloved kichi (that kiwi+kimchi lady) and sweet like candy, jiho at Eiwa University, the best place for ladies.

i was late and hectic because on my way i met my other friends, one just came back from Malaysia and in front of Student Dept Office i talked to good looking Wednesday bro who had just came back from library. we took sometime to argue about the best study room in the library, anyway what's wrong with room no 4? I don't have problem with no 4's bad luck..and the room's table is larger and convenient than in any other room. He told me to study at room no 2 and i said im looking foward to. library is actually not my fav place to study because they forbit any food and drinks inside. the place it too quiet and i felt that i can listen to my own heart beat. creepy huh.

back to the story, jiho and kichi had their "forever" waiting for me while i was enroute to meet them. i received 5 text messages, 3 phone calls and i knew that they sweared a lot addressing me.

my first greeting to kichi was a significant hand sign and god please forgive me for swearing a lot more than i used to say in a month.

2006-02-09T12:01:00.000+09:00

series lawak

2006-02-09T07:55:00.000+09:00

notes were craps sometimes and eventually will ended up in the dustbin.

explicit ol'skool notes treasure.

2006-02-09T07:44:00.000+09:00

cikgu's album

out from my memory box to the memory lane.

2006-02-09T07:35:00.000+09:00

outwit.outlast. like being student forever. one of those days when i worked as teaching assistant at english camp.

2006-02-09T07:31:00.000+09:00

making rice cakes.

2006-02-09T05:57:00.000+09:00

twinkle twinkle little star, how i wonder where you are.

dear daisy,
couple days ago it was snow that showering the scene after almost one month without snow, only bizarre cold. The weather on the previous day was rather bit chilly but sunny. It brought the sign of up coming "spring to be sprang" like in Sinatra's song. It was the first event of the day as i opened my eyes and looked at thick white cotton candy that covered every open surface while rain-like snow showered the scene.
i woke up late the other day, drowsing my laziness to the maximum point where breakfast in bed will be served. but it was all plain and nothing when i came from the moon and back to myself, what a silly wishful princess i am. i had a glass of milk mixed with grape juice for thirst quench after long hours of hibernating in dried atmosphere by unadjust heater floor.it was long hours of sleep and drinking my own version of juice-milk potion relieved me from the wonderland.
there was nothing much about this winter holiday, except more time to myself to do everything that i love the most. i mean more books - silly and desperate writings, more time to watch at practical jokes on the net, thursday's mornings with Oprah Winsfrey's, nights with Letterman's show, still i have not given any spare time for hard core mathematical engineering III.
i finished twice reading Lahiri's writing yesterday on my way back from visiting a friend in a hospital, where i ended up the previous day staying at her place as it was snowy the moment i walked out from the building. it wasn't a starry night nor dark at all. the black backgound scene were filled with small white dots that when appeared nearer it looked just like a small bit of cotton. i gazed and wondered in silence, as they dispersed into the winter breeze and swirling in the atmosphere. dots were befuddle, in confused direction yet it was so amazing..

some people say that, your wish will be granted if you wish during the first snow. after so long, as i walked and look at empty sky,
"i'll save this wish for myself"

amin.

2006-02-06T14:18:00.000+09:00

dear daisy,
i disrepute the freedom of speech in the context of "revere" - religion respect, that at some point people must have limitation to put defiance in what media called it "freedom". The twelve caricatures that insult Holy Prophet Muhammad by Denmark's newspaper, torched religion sentiment rage. Any act of imitating such action should be prison, at least twenty years of detention as a reminder if we look at much destruction that caused by this matter.

And what is funny to look at intricatedly written "there is no god but Allah' on a bomb at prophet's serban?

and why of all the bad things that caused by this publication in the world, "Sarawak Tribune" followed the same act to promote this freedom?

reading nutures mind. well depends on what you're reading.
"Free-doom"

2006-02-01T13:00:00.000+09:00

happy birthday to my most beloved mama.. (he.he..he..i only have one mama)

cha cha cha..

2006-01-31T11:59:00.000+09:00

2006-01-31T11:55:00.000+09:00

have fun. funney face. laugh .

2006-01-31T11:50:00.000+09:00

my funny frend

2006-01-31T11:42:00.000+09:00

theme song for today is : paris (epik high)
oooh faith..oo oo oh destiny.. oh love

the song bring the feeling of missing my kichi (kiwi+kimchi) b*tc* haha..btw she took this snap..

2006-01-30T20:35:00.000+09:00

ooh dear evil sister helen, i will always miss your pervert jokes. so long and good nite...

2006-01-30T13:20:00.000+09:00

mr.captainhook.

2006-01-30T12:56:00.000+09:00

i've been browsing for hours without knowing exactly what i am searching, and all out of a sudden i came accross this picture of my so-called captain hook in his relaxing mode. our last conversation took place in a car (as usual) where he was driving home from Perak and I was on my way to meet my friend. As the subway slowly leaving the station, I felt that time swift so fast that everything ended so quickly. The damp on the windows could not express the bright shining day that light the almost evening. Bald trees and dried grass brought the feeling that it is winter not summer. It was 2 degrees in the outside, but the heater in the coach made me felt that outside was nice too.
And there I was holding my golden key to the future, yet I dont know what to do with the key.

i miss my babah so much. muachhhhhhs!

2006-01-24T10:41:00.000+09:00

da vinci code

2006-01-21T07:52:00.000+09:00

league of extraordinary bastards

budak darjah empat, dua orang budak form 3, sorang budak form 4.
petikan dari bharian.20060120232833

KUALA LUMPUR: Empat pelajar semalam menyaman Kerajaan Malaysia bagi mendapatkan deklarasi bahawa pelaksanaan pengajaran dan pembelajaran Sains dan Matematik dalam bahasa Inggeris adalah bertentangan dengan Perlembagaan Persekutuan

Mereka mendakwa kerajaan menafikan hak pelajar bagi belajar dua mata pelajaran itu dalam bahasa kebangsaan
Plaintif mendakwa pelaksanaan itu menyebabkan anak-anak mereka dipaksa belajar kedua-dua mata pelajaran berkenaan dalam bahasa Inggeris tanpa kerelaan mereka.

Mereka mendakwa responden menguatkuasakan pelaksanaan itu tanpa mengambil kira peruntukan undang-undang khususnya Perkara 152 Perlembagaan Persekutuan, Akta Bahasa Kebangsaan 1967 dan Akta Pendidikan 1996.

Mereka juga mendakwa dasar itu bertentangan dengan prinsip kesamaan yang dijamin dalam Perkara 8(1) Perlembagaan kerana ia mewujudkan jurang di antara pelajar kawasan bandar dan luar bandar.

Selain itu, plaintif turut mendakwa dasar berkenaan bertentangan dengan Dasar Pendidikan Kebangsaan yang memperuntukkan bahasa kebangsaan sebagai bahasa pengantar di sekolah.

Sehubungan itu, plaintif memohon deklarasi bahawa surat pekeliling pelaksanaan dasar berkenaan adalah bertentangan dengan perlembagaan, tidak sah dan terbatal

2006-01-19T09:19:00.000+09:00

the breakfast club

a day without breakfast could bring a serious damage to the brain.

well..today, Cantata Coffee played Avril Lavigne's sk8er boi rather than its usual jazz music.

i feel punk today, i hope everything will be different starting from today.

i'll have a cup of coffee and a packet of nestum for my breakfast. no brain damage today.

2006-01-17T22:02:00.000+09:00

i just came back from bookstore after my work. i'm reading a book by famous Brazil author Paolo Coelho entitled "Veronica decides to die". and I also bought a book by by an Indian woman, Jhumpa Lahiri called Interpreter of Maladives. It cost me a lot, but my love for books didn't cost me to retreat.

I thought of buying Coelho's book the moment I read the journal by one of my students who decided to end his life because he felt sick and tired of the same circumstances that he face everyday. I kinda felt the same way too. Everyday in mylife I meet the same person, doing the same thing everyday, awaken by the same sound of mobile alarm at the same moment of every morning and waiting, waiting for the love letter that never arrive, waiting for train, waiting for my work to end, and all i can say is "my life is waiting". to put some extent of pleasure, i tried to put myself in someone's else condition who is much worse than mine, then later i confined because i can never understand one's pursuit and desire of life. to me life is much more complicated when you are alone.
People tend to think more when living in isolation. I usually think more about the world when I walk alone rather than when I am with my friends. My mind will produce so many questions that are impossible to answer and the all my nerves will conspire to help finding everything that can fill in the blanks.

what i want to conclude is everyone has their own problems. that we can never understand what is it.

the past four weeks has been the same to me. the same row of shops that i have to pass every morning to work, the same sandwiches, the same tune of jazz every morning at Cantata Coffee and of course the same route to work - transfer at Sindang Station and then all the way straight to the english camp. The weather and the wind are not helping, the more i grasp to search for my feel good soul, the cold sipping through my every skin, killing me softly. i feel lonesome, tired, frustration and i wish i am home.

I am sick with the same atmosphere and exhaust of breathing the polluted air of Seoul Metro City. Almost five years I abide myself to this so-called The Rock, and all i can think of are hatred and rotten friendship. As life rolls as in circle, everyday, every passing date and month I will always carrying the same feeling. I tried to sustain my anger in a bottle but much pressure require me to release some softly, like overcome the problems one by one.

That is why for some reason nobody couldn't understand why i hate 27th of March so much.
To be exact on the date and incident that occured, I don't want to state every face and every name because I wish that I never knew them all. It is painful when the memories come twingling in remorse. From sad it grew to frustration then to anger, hate and finally vengeance where the revenge will take place to put the rest into the abyss.

because life is merrying round the merry go round, i wish that the date vanish from the calendar.

and ohhh.. about my student's frustration..i felt sorry for him so as for myself. because of the incident, i never felt so hopeless and alone in this world.

but it is because of my faith obligue me to continue pursuing my life. I wonder sometimes if I did not believe in Allah The Al mighty, I might think of that as one of a resort to solve my problems.
I felt sorry for my student. I wish I could inspire him. have some talk, share something..

But all I did was.. going straight to bookstore for about an hour and half, read Coelho's for almost 20 pages and later I picked Lahiri's and then paid to the cashier.

I decide not to die, but to live happily ever after.

I felt sorry for my student.

2006-01-14T16:53:00.000+09:00

epik high

2006-01-02T00:09:00.000+09:00

mylife. * i don't care *

2006-01-02T00:05:00.000+09:00

i kinda like to watch those *oppa* selling 35cm tall icecream

2006-01-02T00:03:00.000+09:00

myeongdong at nite.

2006-01-01T23:58:00.000+09:00

all around my universe. the place that i used to jog every evening.

2006-01-01T23:55:00.000+09:00

2006-01-01T23:50:00.000+09:00

Having the time of my life
Watching the clock tick
Having the time of my life
Watching the clock tick

2006-01-01T23:48:00.000+09:00

All the time
New year's resolutions
How soon that we forgot
Doing time and loving every minute
Live it up on another let down salud

2006-01-01T23:39:00.000+09:00

fishing day.
today we all went for fishing at this one restaurant. too bad that the waitress took a long time to manage a serving of one eel meal.

2006-01-01T23:37:00.000+09:00

ada gaya semua boleh berjaya

2006-01-01T23:33:00.000+09:00

confession of a geek.
i aim to be someone next to sophie kinsella. write my own story, chronicles of miss geek juicytricky.

2006-01-01T23:26:00.000+09:00

time of mylife. i yearn for my past, to control every moment so later then i will never regret my present. as like in history, the past was not meant to unfold, but a prophecy to learn from mistake so that it will not be repeated.

closing time.2005.